Post by Deleted on Aug 3, 2014 9:58:49 GMT -6
Ok first of all, most of this is false okayy XD, I dont have heart problems, I just needed a plot...
Next, Im sorry Chennie and everyone I used you in this little story haha, I mean nothing I wrote..I just needed something to go off of...
Next, I know there are a lot of errors that i dont feel like correcting...maybe later...
Last, Feel free to comment and critique at the bottom XD my writing is a little rusty and I could use some critism...
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Sekeon's Thoughts/ POV
Hyunwoo... I'm sorry you have to find out this way...that you have to find out of my health problems this late. I'm sorry for not telling you I was a sickly child with chronic heart disease. It subsided and went into dormant mode...so I didn't bring it up. I'm sorry for not tell you...I didn't think it would resurface after over 10 years. And it would cost me my life... Hyunnie-ah, don't be sad, don't cry. Even though it wasn't that long , I wish you could hear my thoughts right now. To me, they might just be my last words to you.
Hyunnie, remember when we met on the internet? I signed up for a site with a extremely pink theme to it and with a bunch of crazy girls on it. I remember I felt so out of place, and didn't know why I was even there...and then you came. You decided to send me a personal message and welcome me to the site. I remember when I didn't reply at first and it took me 11 hours to reply to your message. You were so nice to me, despite my lateness in reply.
Hyunnie, do you remember when I first brought up the question that started this relationship? "Who would you be shipped with?" I meant it as a joke. To see maybe how close some of you are. I didnt think I would get involved with it. When they first brought up our "ship" I felt so awkward. Ive never been gay for someone before. I never really been shipped before, actually. I honestly had mixed feelings at first.
I remember when you got off the site for whatever reason, Chennie was the one who wanted fanservice. So I agreed to a sliver. I remember the first thing I did when you came back was accomplish that sliver of fanservice and get it over with. I was just trying to make chen happy. I gave you a little kiss on the cheek...and I semi expected you to freak out, so I ran away to hide. I would never have expected you to accept it so easily. I think thats what was the best about you. You didnt judge and started this. Hyunnie, please dont be sad...this isnt your fault. I wish I could had the strength to reach up right now and place my hand on your chest...to feel your strong heartbeat versus my own weak one. I should have told you, or at least to taken better care of myself, so I wouldnt be here, and you would be happy, at home sleeping peacefully and quietly. Its my fault, and I am sorry. So sorry...
We never really went out, but we sent little secret messages to each other. It was out little thing. Hyunnie, at first, I thought it would be a meaningless ship, a little act that would hold no real love or affection. At first, I thought this was just to make the girls happy. But after snuggling for a bit and a little more skinship here and there, I really began falling for you Hyunnie...It took a few minutes to realize, but you were distracting, almost like a magnet that attracts all of my attention. Thats when it hit me. I like you Hyunnie...I really do.
I remember when I had insomnia. It wasnt chronic, but I had it often. I couldn't sleep, no matter how hard I tried. I was always tired. And then you came along. I'm not sure what you did, but afterwards, I knocked out for a solid 5 hours. I felt like you are whats grounding me an perhaps even protecting me? And Im grateful for that. For how you make me feel. I could finally sleep...but now...Im going to sleep again. A very long sleep. An eternal sleep...
I remember when we would tease everyone with out relationship. It was always fun to tease Chennie, you know? I loved it. It was what little power I had over her on this site. It was the funniest thing ever since she would go a little crazy...but it was fun teasing you too. I loved that about your neck too...
Hyunnie....my brain is getting fuzzy... I guess this is the end, huh? Wait no, hyunnie please dont be sad. Dont cry... If i had the strength, I would cup your soft cheeks and kiss you right now. You shouldnt be here right now... If I werent here, you would be cuddled in bed, asleep right now, instead of worrying about me. And I would maybe be cuddled up with you.
Hyunnie...was that a doctor? What did he say? Am i going to make it? Im not dying right now or soon right? Maybe its not the end for me? Hyunnie...why are you squeezing my hand so tightly? It hurts Hyunnie, it hurts a lot. Hyunnie...please look at me, dont be sad. I want to see your happy face and one last bright smile before I leave. Even if Im leaving to eternal sleep, I want to see your happy smiling face one last time before I go...
Hyunnie...Im beginning to hear the music played during the saddest parts of a korean drama. I watched a sad movie before..what was it called? Oh yeah, Hatchiko...where the dog came to the train station everyday to search for his master even though he was gone. The dog that stayed loyal, even after his loved one was gone for good. I cried during that movie. But would you do that for me, Hyunnie? Well, you dont need to, Hyunnie, you deserve someone better. You deserve someone who will think twice before leaving you in the middle of nowhere to sleep, or someone who steals all your candy supplies to stop you from eating them, someone who doesnt tease so much. Someone that isnt me...
I wish I at least had the strength to tell you that Im sorry. I should have told you before. Hyunnie, I shouldnt have joined this site, and you shouldnt have been so nice to me. Look at me, all I did was break your heart and leave like this...
Hyunnie, I am dying, my heart beat is getting weaker and slower. Do you know that when before a person dies, they would have at least seven minutes to recall their memories and play it like a slideshow? I just did and it is already time. My seven minutes is finally up. Don’t be sad hyunnie, don’t worry. I hope you find someone better than me to love...but...I hope you will still love me too... So heres my goodbye...forever.
Next, Im sorry Chennie and everyone I used you in this little story haha, I mean nothing I wrote..I just needed something to go off of...
Next, I know there are a lot of errors that i dont feel like correcting...maybe later...
Last, Feel free to comment and critique at the bottom XD my writing is a little rusty and I could use some critism...
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Sekeon's Thoughts/ POV
Hyunwoo... I'm sorry you have to find out this way...that you have to find out of my health problems this late. I'm sorry for not telling you I was a sickly child with chronic heart disease. It subsided and went into dormant mode...so I didn't bring it up. I'm sorry for not tell you...I didn't think it would resurface after over 10 years. And it would cost me my life... Hyunnie-ah, don't be sad, don't cry. Even though it wasn't that long , I wish you could hear my thoughts right now. To me, they might just be my last words to you.
Hyunnie, remember when we met on the internet? I signed up for a site with a extremely pink theme to it and with a bunch of crazy girls on it. I remember I felt so out of place, and didn't know why I was even there...and then you came. You decided to send me a personal message and welcome me to the site. I remember when I didn't reply at first and it took me 11 hours to reply to your message. You were so nice to me, despite my lateness in reply.
Hyunnie, do you remember when I first brought up the question that started this relationship? "Who would you be shipped with?" I meant it as a joke. To see maybe how close some of you are. I didnt think I would get involved with it. When they first brought up our "ship" I felt so awkward. Ive never been gay for someone before. I never really been shipped before, actually. I honestly had mixed feelings at first.
I remember when you got off the site for whatever reason, Chennie was the one who wanted fanservice. So I agreed to a sliver. I remember the first thing I did when you came back was accomplish that sliver of fanservice and get it over with. I was just trying to make chen happy. I gave you a little kiss on the cheek...and I semi expected you to freak out, so I ran away to hide. I would never have expected you to accept it so easily. I think thats what was the best about you. You didnt judge and started this. Hyunnie, please dont be sad...this isnt your fault. I wish I could had the strength to reach up right now and place my hand on your chest...to feel your strong heartbeat versus my own weak one. I should have told you, or at least to taken better care of myself, so I wouldnt be here, and you would be happy, at home sleeping peacefully and quietly. Its my fault, and I am sorry. So sorry...
We never really went out, but we sent little secret messages to each other. It was out little thing. Hyunnie, at first, I thought it would be a meaningless ship, a little act that would hold no real love or affection. At first, I thought this was just to make the girls happy. But after snuggling for a bit and a little more skinship here and there, I really began falling for you Hyunnie...It took a few minutes to realize, but you were distracting, almost like a magnet that attracts all of my attention. Thats when it hit me. I like you Hyunnie...I really do.
I remember when I had insomnia. It wasnt chronic, but I had it often. I couldn't sleep, no matter how hard I tried. I was always tired. And then you came along. I'm not sure what you did, but afterwards, I knocked out for a solid 5 hours. I felt like you are whats grounding me an perhaps even protecting me? And Im grateful for that. For how you make me feel. I could finally sleep...but now...Im going to sleep again. A very long sleep. An eternal sleep...
I remember when we would tease everyone with out relationship. It was always fun to tease Chennie, you know? I loved it. It was what little power I had over her on this site. It was the funniest thing ever since she would go a little crazy...but it was fun teasing you too. I loved that about your neck too...
Hyunnie....my brain is getting fuzzy... I guess this is the end, huh? Wait no, hyunnie please dont be sad. Dont cry... If i had the strength, I would cup your soft cheeks and kiss you right now. You shouldnt be here right now... If I werent here, you would be cuddled in bed, asleep right now, instead of worrying about me. And I would maybe be cuddled up with you.
Hyunnie...was that a doctor? What did he say? Am i going to make it? Im not dying right now or soon right? Maybe its not the end for me? Hyunnie...why are you squeezing my hand so tightly? It hurts Hyunnie, it hurts a lot. Hyunnie...please look at me, dont be sad. I want to see your happy face and one last bright smile before I leave. Even if Im leaving to eternal sleep, I want to see your happy smiling face one last time before I go...
Hyunnie...Im beginning to hear the music played during the saddest parts of a korean drama. I watched a sad movie before..what was it called? Oh yeah, Hatchiko...where the dog came to the train station everyday to search for his master even though he was gone. The dog that stayed loyal, even after his loved one was gone for good. I cried during that movie. But would you do that for me, Hyunnie? Well, you dont need to, Hyunnie, you deserve someone better. You deserve someone who will think twice before leaving you in the middle of nowhere to sleep, or someone who steals all your candy supplies to stop you from eating them, someone who doesnt tease so much. Someone that isnt me...
I wish I at least had the strength to tell you that Im sorry. I should have told you before. Hyunnie, I shouldnt have joined this site, and you shouldnt have been so nice to me. Look at me, all I did was break your heart and leave like this...
Hyunnie, I am dying, my heart beat is getting weaker and slower. Do you know that when before a person dies, they would have at least seven minutes to recall their memories and play it like a slideshow? I just did and it is already time. My seven minutes is finally up. Don’t be sad hyunnie, don’t worry. I hope you find someone better than me to love...but...I hope you will still love me too... So heres my goodbye...forever.